Candle Light Vigil

          What a day I imagined and felt it was going to be the second my alarm went off and I laid and bed cloudy headed. As I rubbed my eyes and continuously told myself that it was later in the day than it actually was I finally got up out of my warm bed. My feet hit the cold, hard, tiled floor and although I was shivering I walked over to the blinds to open them up. It was snowing outside. The roads and my front yard were a white winter wonder land and it was ordinary day weather wise in New England. Something that most people around the world would not be adapted to; it comes first hand to me. I put the coffee on and hopped in the shower after picking out my work outfit for the day ahead.

                The coffee was hot and after a little cream and sugar was made to perfection. Knowing in my heart and mind that I was going to have a productive day I got dressed and waited for my ride at the front door to bring me to work. Sadly my ride didn’t come so I called the cab. Because it was a last minute call I was stuck with a cabbie that already had one drop off before me and I got in the back and the three of us talked. Talked about everyday issues, family issues and throughout our discussion I realized the similarities that I had with this nice older lady that reminded me of my grandmother. She made me feel so comfortable in my own skin I felt like I could just be my real self around her.

                Conversation continued and a joke was told. We laughed a laugh that was so genuine it made me feel like I couldn’t stop. Her laugh and smile was making me laugh and smile. Those white teeth, that smile would light up a room, I thought. Then she gasped, gasped for air and clenched her chest. In panic she grabbed my shoulder and by the time I realized what was happened it wasn’t soon enough. I yelled for the cabbie to pull over and did all I could to revive her but my help was not enough. It was like my whole world came down. I blamed myself and only myself. I didn’t even know this lady but it hit me so hard it pierced my heart.

                After fire and medical came I went home for the day and after soaking in my own sorrow. I went down to the town park and attended a vigil with what seemed to be everyone I had ever known. The candles were so bright, they lit up the whole night sky and I knew she was looking down in peace. I said my condolences and prayed. I knew that she was in a better place, a much better place.


Picture is of credit to Allison Swift Zercher..Thank you!
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